There is a star inside my apple
I know it is hard to grapple
but if you cut it side to side
there is a star alone, no lie.
And in my star inside my apple
are sleepy little seeds
and in those seeds found in my star
are could-be apple trees.
Out in the ground, I will put my seeds
and an apple tree will grow
And in that tree soon will be apples,
red or gold with stars and seeds and apple trees
for people, birds, bears and bees,
For months, for years, for centuries
And on and on it goes you see
And on and on it goes.
Despite having quotes to hand, guidance of what to write and time- I find myself completely out of focus.
Distracted by every noise, sound and smell around me.
Knowledge is like a garden if it is not cultivated it cannot be harvested.
I have entered the potential energy of the Gemini phase occurring tomorrow evening for me here in the UK.
The irony not lost on me.
my soul has the path number of this Astrological Archetype.
I often tend to see so many perspectives.
So I find myself, doing exactly what I always do when it comes to knowing how to navigate my own creativity.
Complete all physical “distractions” and then finally climb my intuition, through my body.
Occupying my analytic mind with tasks, immersed in doing,creativity flows.
Uniting my Masculine and Feminine.
Bringing guidance down, forming Heaven on Earth, through my wonderful physical vessel.
All the scriptures tell us one thing: Know thyself- if you have known yourself, you have known everything else.
Sri Swami Satchidananda
And this is where I find myself, in so many ways.
Deciding on my own physical environment I am empowered to start what I have been avoiding, on so many levels.
Sat in my front garden, the sun blaring onto me I am in truth unable to see a single word I am writing.
In this space I am be- coming my path, the Tarot card of this moon, The Lovers.
True knowledge exists in the knowing you know nothing
My eyesight blocked, visualising words through my inner-tuition.
I find the “seed” within all my in- sight.
My own knowledge and understanding, I am my Guide.
Emergence of great love and enjoyment within all my bodies.
My Higher self.
Or as I like to think, my future persona, my own Guardian, my potential.
Theres a choice you must make in everything you do. So keep in mind that in the end, the choice you make, makes you.
How We see Angels, Guides, even, as a result, each other, is an individual process.
For me, there is no separation, they are a blueprint of what I can become.
Not always a “positive” thing when you realise the shadow of the Lovers is the Devil!
Archangel Raphael for example, depicted on the Lover’s card in the Tarot, speaks of healing.
Physical health, signifying my highest possibility in this place.
Alongside the wellbeing of the third eye and how we see our current circumstances.
Live the story you want to tell
Collectively there is a hunger for this awareness, and I for one am embracing the direction I always knew.
The journey of beauty and “pure sight”
Emphasis on BEAUTY
Beyond our own views, from a place of great love.
Here our “guides” have the capacity to unite us in remembrance of our own divinity.
We all have them, every plant, animal, 2 legged, 4 or many, even the stone people.
We are all aided by the very thing we are becoming.
The world is shaped by 2 things, stories told and the memories they leave behind.
So why see separation?
Utilising “labels”, structure, form we build Empires based on this heirachy.
No longer a “traditional system of orders of angels and other heavenly beings”
Seperation gives us a far wider picture and respect for each foundation of existence.
It becomes our legacy.
No story lives unless someone wants to listen
J K Rowling
But that is the old Emperor!
This year, with 2020 and yes, I will say it again, clear vision, we are being asked to look at a new way forward.
Full circle in our knowing, to see the union within us all.
All is one, what one says another reacts to.
We often forget this and like seeds in a rotten apple we start to decay what was once crucial to our own evolution.
The awareness of the bigger picture.
All is love.
And…. All is a choice, even how we perceive this.
I have decided to stick with love, hate is too great a burden to bear
Martin Luther King JNR
This is our “free will”
The tree of knowledge from which all fruition grows.
An incredible bounty often underfed until “removed”.
Even less digested, by the very people that desire it so much.
Free will like the apple of wisdom can leave us more aware, awake, or “enlightened” than we had planned.
Knowledge without practice is useless, practice without knowledge is dangerous.
Seeing our own naked vulnerability we begin to form separations.
Split in half, we no longer perceive the star within us that holds the source of all beginnings.
Instead, in our need to understand the reason behind this pain, we seek to confirm or is that conform.
What once was a delicious morsel of juicy empowerment becomes bitter, poisonous.
Shared or rather force fed with many, the slumber continues.
Yet, like any good fairy tale, in its very nature, free will has the ability to grow, to diversify, release new seeds.
In every single thing you do you are choosing a direction. Your life is a product of choice.
Dr. Kathleen Hall
We are able to regain what was once, and in truth always has been, ours.
The emphasis on this New Moon.
To in-tend and garden our own Eden within.
Look at the mirrored landscape.
Our own mind, body, and soul.
Unite with the very thing we often give away.
Our Stories and why we tell them.
Eve tasted the apple in the garden of Eden in order to slake that intense thirst for knowledge that the simple pleasures of picking flowers and talking to Adam could not satisfy.
Elizabeth Cady Stanton
Theres a famous tale, you’ve probabally heard of it in one manner or another.
A young, pure, female, tempted, somtimes by the Devil himself.
Ingesting knowing, she passes it forward.
She is punished.
Her and her ancestor’s wombs are to be a place of suffering.
Each thing she creates will cause great pain, and all those that seek it within her “will” be chastised.
Her be-loved, will become infinite work, ardous.
Each decision, will impact all actions made along future generations.
And together they “will” never know the abundance they once came from.
May your choices reflect your hopes not your fears
What a version or vision!
Where is the happy ending?
Does this continue forever?
My own narrative would or “WILL freely” include and go a little along these lines…
Throughout her journey, she continued to bloom.
Seeking answers beyond the obvious vulnerability, within the sky of her imagination.
She was Being love,her actions reflected this back to her in awe.
Remembering who “they” were, they found themselves, the veil lifted.
Here they realise the seeds within the apple.
They plant them.
In all they do and become, for all they meet to feed from.
The infinite Heaven on Earth- the time of Pachakutti has arrived.
The serpent now gains its’ wings, becoming Quetzalcoatl, forming the vision of Ayni.
Intent reveals desire, action reveals commitment.
Dr. Steve Maraboli
The stories of old are finally shed with the union of “true loves” recognition or the “Gem-in-Eye!”
Well this is all in the perception.
From this place we act and know and be, our decisions.
Commitment is what transforms a promise into a reality.
The snake of temptation is a mirror of our behaviours.
Once bitten, the “snake eyes” become the vision of the apple within our own sight.
Yet, we can change the game.
Placing the “gamble” on ourselves, seeing the knowledge that we are here to create change.
To re write the legends for our children’s’ children to read.
Concentrate on your game and don’t be afraid to win!
“The apple doesn’t fall far from the tree” and when it does it is through gravity.
There is support in all we do.
We never left Eden.
We are here to remember this and remind each other of the only knowledge worth discovering.
You have to learn the rules of the game, and then you have to play better than anyone else.
Our thoughts are the air we breathe.
Emotions the very blood of the Earth.
Passion the fire of all zodiacs, the essence of warmth and light within the sun that beams upon us and our actions.
This understanding, has been the harvest of all our Ancestors.
To remember the senses, to savour the juices of our own creativity, remove any rotten stories.
Be aware of fake knowledge it is more dangerous than ignorance
George Bernard Shaw
In connecting to our body’s intelligence, we digest the truth, this “apple a day keeps the doctor away”.
We become the highest vision of health.
We seek alignment in all we do, not because it is tempting but essential.
And we begin to choose ourselves.
From a place of love.
Love is not maximum emotion; love is maximum commitment.
Knowing our Higher self is the future of all we do, see, feel, and create.
We grow the very orchard of our own legacy.
Extracting the sap of this new moon we begin to “C” the dice essential to change the game.
Commitment is a choice
Over the next few weeks there are to be many directions.
Many ways forward, as unique, and individual as the person making them.
The mountain beyond the “isolation” passed Social distancing.
The red road or beauty way.
The place of the great Serpent, belly to belly with Pachamama.
Where deep healing and shedding has the potential to occur.
The root behind the rising of such delicious, resonant information.
Because I always have a choice, I choose love.
This is the focus.
The very reason why we bit into the apple in the first place.
A chance to pick up the apple cart and decide what produce we are taking forward.
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If you wait until you find the meaning of life, will there be enough life left to live meaningfully?
The Lubavitcher Rebbe
Until next time, here’s to throwing the book away and discovering new stories.